I don’t cook nearly as much as I should, nor as much as I’d like to. I have the incredible talent of making something much bigger than it is. Some people call this laziness. I call it over-thinking. It’s probably a bit of both. Maybe mostly laziness. Cooking has always been one of those things that I can justify forgoing without fail. But then, when I do take the time to cook, I genuinely enjoy it. Ah, paradoxes.
Anyway, about a week ago, I was digging through the recipes I brought with me from home, and it got me thinking as well as cooking. I feel like we are all destined to spend our lives attempting to recreate dishes we grow up with that warm us up from the inside and now serve as gateways to simpler times. Regardless of how great a cook your mom or dad was, there’s some taste that makes you think of home. I lucked out with a line of great cooks in my family. As such I’m both blessed with and stuck with a huge number of meals that bring me back home, but also bring me to the point of insanity trying to get them “just right.” Here again my inner perfectionist gets a workout. The outsider has no point of comparison. So many of the Memphis dishes I’ve made for Montrealers have gone over incredibly well, and while I can always enjoy them, there’s something in me pining for that little thing that made it Mom’s s0-and-so rather than mine. Sometimes I can pinpoint it – and sometimes it’s not even the dish itself that’s lacking. It’s the deep blue and white soup bowls with the lids that I miss. It’s the dog barking at my feet. Thankfully, in these moments when I can pick out the memory that’s nagging at me or when I can quiet down the perfectionist, it’s not a sad kind of missing. It’s a way to think back to the small things that maybe you took advantage of way back when.
I seriously miss my mother’s cooking. Both the childhood staples with and the innumerable dishes she’s researched and successfully undertaken since then, even the ones she didn’t deem good enough to repeat. So going into it with the knowledge that it wouldn’t taste “just right” but would, all the same, bring a bit of my family and of my Memphis home up to me, I made taco soup the other night, and I’ll leave you the recipe now, or at least my modified version of it, for you to make it your own. And you’ve got it easy, what without ever having known the best.
Taco Soup:
1 whole rotisserie chicken, torn apart into bite-sized pieces
1 can of pinto beans (undrained)
1 can of red kidney beans (undrained)
1 large can of whole kernnel corn (undrained)
1 large can of tomato sauce
1 large can diced tomatoes (or two regular sized cans)
1 can of Rotel tomatoes (if you can find them – if not, any kind of stewed tomatoes with seasoning or chilis will do)
1 package of Ranch seasoning
1 package of taco seasoning
2 cups of chicken stock
1 cup of water
Fritos
Easiest recipe ever from here – throw everything into a big pot (aside from the Fritos), bring it to a boil, and let it simmer for around 2 hours. Top with Fritos in your individual bowls. Makes quite a bit and is awesome the next day, too. You could also make it with ground beef, though I never have. In that case, I’d use three cups of water and no chicken stock. But the chicken version is pretty much perfection, so I suggest that. Anyway – I hope this warms you up on an unseasonally chilly evening this spring. =)

